Anonymous asked: i think you were right about mind palaces and it was really fucking obnoxious of ayries to respond like they did

aheheh.

Dude, it was my mistake. Ideally I should have reblogged the OP instead of ayries with my own take on mind palaces, because all that did was make zhir think that I was attacking zhir and calling zhir game stupid. And, well, ayries happens to belong to the contingent of the tumblr populace who…. really, really like writing long diatribes against people they don’t like. Usually it’s, you know, for social justice infractions and being racist on the internet, and sometimes it’s for other reasons. I drew the line of fire on that one, and I shouldn’t have been surprised when i got nailed for it. Still, I was surprised and offended and unhappy when I saw zhir response, and fired off a few asks to the effect of “Really? REALLY?” that didn’t do a whole lot in my favor.

So no. I’m not in the right here. Zhe had every right to take my leaping-off of their post as a personal attack, based on the fact that I took their positive response to a concept and posted my negative response. I believed I was accused of taking zhir good happy energy and transforming into something else, which, yes. I did.

But, thankfully, this is all something that could easily be solved with realizing that I didn’t want to read a single word zhe said in the future and unfollowing.

As for my post:

I wasn’t trying to hurt feelings. I wasn’t trying to tell people that their game was stupid or that they were stupid for playing it. My post was trite and not that well written, and ayries was right for laughing at it as much as zhe did, but in essence, all I was trying to say that as someone with PTSD, intrusive thoughts, and a hell of a lot of blank spaces in my childhood memory, the idea of memory is really complicated for me. I’m really very nervous about the things i do and do not remember, and the idea of a mind palace intrigued me because I would never, ever want to indulge in that exercise. Ayries said I was playing the game wrong, that I’d misunderstood its purpose, and yes, I had, I suppose. I never use memory tricks to begin with- hell, I never even so much as studied when i was in school. there’s just a shitton of stuff i don’t want to remember and a whole lot more i can’t.

In short: I’m kinda dumb, and I wasn’t as good at saying some things as I wanted to be, and people on the internet really don’t like it when you’re dumb and inarticulate.

the lesson for me to take away here?

stop talking about things. you are not good at it.

1. shephaestion said: lol no you are Super at writing - i saw it as just you going ‘wellwritten poetic evocation of my mind+childhood trauma memories!’ in a ‘PEMDAS is helpful!’ post which merits a ‘hm you don’t…that’s…not what it does’ but not a bitching-out
2. delladilly said: no you shouldn’t yes you areeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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